I do not know

I finally broke down. My life, I fainted for the first time.

When I woke up, Stinky has beaten stability needles, sleeping over.

Days in the hospital is no memory of the day, I still can not remember. Do not know why, I just remember Smelly left eye on that piece of dazzling white gauze.

I have tried to close my left eye, and wanted to see the world the Stinking can see. When I see them, I feel very sad. Really.

He often used his trust only remaining right eye looked at me, it is a clear, such as spring-like eyes. Showing trust in the eyes makes me sad.

I was vulnerable. I never dared to look at my children that done the surgery left eye. I am afraid, I am really afraid. Each time to bring the child to the dressing, and I was always afraid to enter. I hid in the the ophthalmic corridor. I can still hear Smelly shout slogans: "Mom - Mom -" sound. I hid in the elevator, with the elevator up and down, I tried hard to cover your own ears, but Smelly still hear the barking. The helpless voice call my mother wanders in every corner of the hospital, lingering. Yes, I can not escape forever also can not escape. Each time, I hold for End drug struggling not strength Smelly, Smelly picked up sounded tears but still choked protection Smelly picked up rushed over to me, my heart is not a "pain" words can describe.

I asked the heavens: All this is why ah?

Heaven speechless.

After he finished surgery, the doctor told me to the Smelly live for six months. I really thought he could live for six months, but only two months, I Smelly left.

Smelly go, I do not know. I really do not know that he was leaving me a sign. He eat or drink, lying quietly in my arms, ethereal like a feather, his little brow frowning tightly. I hugged him, only to hug him tightly. And Smelly only let me hold. He kept twisting in my arms, crying: "Mom, uncomfortable mother, uncomfortable." I hugged him, only holding him tightly.

Who can save my children!

I Smelly sent to the hospital. In the ward, and I love to fetch something in hospital, I carried my child, holding my child is about to leave, I cried, not any take into account the cry aloud. I served as the tears flowing wildly in my face. I asked Smelly: "Why, why do you want to leave me! I am your mother, may be why I did not save you, ah!" The sad sick children, I can not save the child to the mother, and I could only watch him to leave me, but there is no way. My helpless cries echoed in the empty ward. God has a soul ah! If tears could bring back my Smelly, I prefer to let my tears into the sea! If you use my life to save my child, I would rather die a thousand times! My children, I Smelly! Only he could hear my call. But he has been in a coma.